Lost with No Direction

Like a small boat, wavering on the ocean. Wandering where it will be going. Follow the wave, going into unknown parts of deep sea.

Congratulations! 🎉🎊🎈🎀 Just graduated with Diploma in Physiotherapy! I'm no longer a student physio! Can actually become a full pledge physiotherapist!

However...

In this juncture of my life, I am having a great dilemma. What's the root cause of it? SIT.

Seeing most of my friends have gotten the offer letter, even if their results are slightly worse than me (2.7 also got it; mime 3.14 still pending), I'm not comparing or being jealous, but I'm just worried for myself. This SIT admission thingy really got me into deep water.

Being jobless for almost 2 months, waking up in the morning with no calling, living a zombie life, wasting the times of my life.

I know I have to have faith and believe in God's leading. But sometimes I'm just tired of waiting, seeing the word "processing" make me even hard to face the reality.

Other than that, relationship thingy is another trouble for me.
I hope he doesn't read my blog; and if you do, please respect me.
No official status, we progress too fast, it's on a speed that I hardly feel any romance. Only Lust. A relationship driven by Lust.
I feel so pity, why would I be in this shit. I'm a high standard girl and suddenly broke down into a slut. WTH. I want a clarification, justice.

I am not confident in him. Feeling that he is not ready, actually both not ready, this relationship might shatter any point in time soon.

Just wanna grumble over here, talk about one of the lowest point in my life.

LOST.