Sunday, 8 January 2017

First Emo in 2017

Separating myself from the world for a little while.

Personal space. Personal time.

Cried a little. Tear glands activated. They accumulated in my eyes unknowingly.

Is it because my brother is married now? Is it because I feel lonely after this. Left me, on my own.

A lot of people congratulated me for having such a handsome brother or sisters. Having a family of pretties and handsomes.

But... I got no one to share my happiness. I'm a sensitive person. I am very concerned about feelings. I need someone to be there with me when I want to share my sweetness, bitterness or even jealousy.

Last night, a lot of people complimented me. Saying that I turned to a graceful lady. But, photots don't do justice to this statement. My photos are all so ugly. Why am I not photogenic at all?

Not about this issue. Why do I feel lonely easily these days...?

No answer. Still finding. When I wrote this thing, do I have someone in mind?

Yes. Him. But to be realistically, he doesn't match with me. I not sure. Even though I'm not those superficial kind of girls... Yet, I still have my own requirements.

But those fulfilled my requirements, I personally think that they won't like me. Or more of I don't deserve to be with them. Cause they are so fantastic.

LOVE. Tough. Rough.

I don't understand why I get emo right after the wedding. Too sensible? Because of  the wedding I attended? When will be my turn? Waiting for God's guidance. Not only on my relationship, but also my career as well as academy.

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