Oh first post in 2016!
I just realised it and I didn't manage this account quite a long time huh..!
(For those annoying stalker please don't view my posts!!!! Do research on something else!!!) No offence here hehe cause recently some of my friends found out my Google circle account and omg I have never really revealed or told anyone about my blog stuff. It's meant to be my secret place to being anonymously even though I have linked to my fb but who will go and actually look into my profile?! Haha..forget it.
2016 right? So new year resolution will do the kickstart for my post!
-get slimmer
-get sponsorship
-get attached 😳
-more faithful and follow his path
-more radiant and graceful
-be analytical and brainstorm more
That somehow sums up my wish hehe.
Sigh, late night thoughts like seriously duh.
It's been 3 years since the last breakup. Ever since then I have never really fall in love with someone. Not to mention a bit of interest in guys. Indeed, I don't easily moved or touched by guys. I just don't have the feelings in them and I always distant myself from them. Perhaps I'm more mature now and don't want to have puppy love. Perhaps because of post-traumatic breakup with him.
He moved on.
Me? Still stand in the same square and did not move on yet. I've tried. Tried to chat with guys who kind of interested in me but no way I'm gonna waste my time and please him. I have a principle which is IF I DON'T HAVE THE FEELING IN YOU AT THE FIRST PLACE, I WON'T ENTERTAIN YOU IN THE END. Maybe we can be friend but yeah..just friend. Nothing much.
Is it my requirement too high?
I am praying. And still praying. I just pray that my real soul mate which selected by God can approach me asap. The baseline: Christian. And it's genuinely faithful christian. Some of my friends say I'm worried too much. It's only 22 you still have long road to go. Yes I know. But I am also human. When someone on fb or insta doing #pdf, the feeling...yeshh..and when I need a companion instead of my girlfriends... Oh here's the point, I dont even have a male friend to be my intimate friend at least someone to confide in. Research does shows that is better to confide in opposite sex friends. But I don't even have one. Maybe I need someone who think more mature than me. I need someone to protect me and dote on me...
Stop it.. Doing good work for your academic and clinicals first. Don't bother about #bgr!! God's has his best timing for us. You shall wait.
Anyway, happy monkey year!
Goodnight! 😊
